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Why Life is a Videogame and What I Want in a Girlfriend

Updated: Oct 19, 2022

This post is going to be one of my more controversial ones because it's a bit personal and somewhat unrelated to dronecars, but I'm going to try to establish relevancy before getting into the meat of the topic, so don't come for me.

I have never really had anyone work on Lorenz Motors with me. Trigger warning: I actually stabbed myself in the neck at one point after completing one of my most ambitious milestones and having no one to share the success with. It felt cold, purposeless, and like I was shouldering 100% of the load of trying to get this thing going.

Honestly, it felt sort of bad ass not dying from that. I don't mean to bring service-men into this, but I'm a big fan of military movies like Lone Survivor and Marvel movies like Ironman. And, although I'm not trying to compare myself to the heroes who protect this country, and I'm fully aware my life is not fantasy movie, I am trying to say that I think that those inspirations had an impact on why I stabbed myself with a blunt Philips head screw driver.

I mean, screw drivers are not sharp, so I really had to put about 40+ pounds of pressure behind the push to break through the rigid skin on my neck. I say this because what was going on through my head at the time was something like me telepathically communicating with a higher power (I think it was aliens). I was taking a lot of pre-workout without actually working out, by the way, let me just preface this by saying that. I don't typically think about aliens all the time like that lol.

But, for some reason, my brain thought what I did was so significant that, since no one in real life was celebrating my success, I had to stab myself. Luckily, I ended up in a behavioral hospital being treated for psychosis and bipolar and I met a bunch of awesome people who legally have to care about me, but still, it felt nice having a sense of appreciation.

Anyway, I say all this to say that I can't go on any longer without someone by my side. I mean, I can, but I'd much rather build this company with someone else supporting me, because it's like I'm a single-parent raising a baby on my own. I have friends who think this is cool, but I need something more. Someone who actually knows their shit, or is willing to learn the craft, to have a relevant conversation with me to propel the project forward. Someone who is willing to study the trade to have a discourse about dronecars; the state of affairs and bureaucratic legislation behind the hurdles flying cars face in the public eye.

You don't even have to be an engineer. A lawyer, chemist, marketer, business person, economist, like it doesn't matter as long as you're passionate about playing a cooperative (co-op) videogame with someone who developed a nice game to play :)

And, this is what I mean about life being a videogame. There are so many preconceived notions about what life is supposed to be. You probably came into this post with a ton of them ranging from 1. A business is supposed to make money, not be a love story to 2. whatever else, but let me tackle the first point.

I think that money is secondary, a bonus, if you will, to what life ultimately is, which is a love/match-making game. I'll be damned if I'm sitting here doing this shit for money. I'd rather die. Which is why I almost did haha. Getting no love in return for my efforts it really did feel like I was starting to enter a multiverse where every decision was based on trying to get more numbers in your bank account.

Don't get me wrong, numbers are nice, but I think that, ultimately, we like numbers because they help us get matched with our partners. Am I right? We all want to survive. It's the number one human need. That includes the survival of our genes, which is passed on through love.

Anyway, I'm done trying to justify this.

I developed a cool ass game to play for two people, maybe four depending on if my best friend and his wife want to decide to pick themselves up by the bootstraps and find a way to contribute lol but for real look at other successful businesses run by couples. There are a few couples who have written relationship secret books and have made a killing being in love. I find that cute, but it's been done before. My video game is much harder and unique. And, besides, I'd much rather put this out there and ask for what I want and have my baby grow that way then be stuck doing something I don't love.

I want to associate my work with someone I love. A person. Something with warmth and a personality; not something I dread. Honestly, I feel like I'm building a blueprint for how businesses should function. Especially with the internet, it's much easier now to build a business and ask for something like this and actually have it happen. Thanks Steve Jobs.

If you're interested in being my friend and seeing if we work well together:

And then send me a message explaining the role you'd want to play in the company. (It doesn't have to be one that's listed).

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